Yeah, it's gonna be a long summer indeed. But if you think about time, we're already nearing the end of the month, so this is actually reassuring. I've been so busy these days that the mere idea of loging on and writing makes my body ache. But in the end busy is good, busy means money and I need it now more than ever.
I'm looking forward to moving out of the house, to finally getting the chance to live my life without anybody telling me what to do and when to do it. I need some sort of structure especially when it comes to money because so far I haven't actually cared about it, except for the time spent in Poland. However, saving up has never been an easy task to be accomplished. I've never been able to resist a good DVD offer (or three, as happend last week. My new acquisitions were 'Jackie Brown' [necessary], 'Fahrenheit 9/11' and 'The War') or the good old 15 beers (it can never be two, of course). But that also means that I'll get to enjoy sometime indoors, MY indoors! I don't go out for real party anyway so I might as well sepnd less cash. Speaking of cash, I've downloaded Johnny Cash Live at Folsom Prison. So great! To be honest, I've been meaning to get something from the guy since my short stay in L.A. (almos five years ago!), when Ro wanted me to listen to some of his songs, but I guess in the whole packing process the CD was forgotten . I'm so happy with this new item of music, and this one didn't cost me a niquel, fortunately!
But the whole thing of moving out has been stalled for 15 more days after the arranged date, which really put me down for a while but as I said earlier, being busy has helped me keep it together. I think the only moment that is hard on me is what I'm experiencing right now. It's 6:50pm of Friday and I'm at the corner's bar having a beer, cigarettes and listening to The Police Live in Rio (Matheus gave it to me, thanks man!). I'm glad to have the friends that I do, but the moment they have other things to do, either for leisure or work-related reasons, I feel lost. I have no acquaintances, people to just sit down with and talk shit while drinking. Adri has to work on weekends at the beach, Matheus has this graduation party to go tonight and Lula, well, Lula is a guy that I haven't seen ia a looooong while. I guess during all this time I've been in the city I've seen Ramiro more than him, I told him that! I don't blame him, of course, his life has changed and I cannot demand things the way they were two years ago, before London. But I miss the guy, you know?
I miss dancing. It was so good... Either London at the occasional Polish Party or O'neills or in Krakow on Saturdays at Cocon. Bailinho first, of course.
Another thing that is making feel bad is not writing to my distant friends, especially Ronaldo. The rare moments I log on, usually at night after my intentive course, I just check my work mail, check Orkut, shut the computer down and go to sleep. I've seen his messages trying to get in touch with me but I simply can't write just to say I'm alive. The whole plan we had just went down the drain and for the moment is not something that I'm thinking about. When I got the job I decided that this year I would spend here, sorting some things out and then for 2009 I would figure out what to do. However, I've been thinking about going back to college. In fact, this was something that I considered doing the moment I set foot in POA, but with the whole SF thing I miss the vestibular date. Well, I can take the test every year, but that means spending at least four more years here until graduation, assuming, of course, I passed the goddamn test.
And after many drunken conversations with Adri throughout the last four months, the idea of Portugal started to sound not that bad. This is something to be cultivated.
Work has been good, but exhausting. I'm at this whole new level now. The school has a pretty laid-back policy, people are not too demanding but you are aware from day one of what you're supposed to be doing.
The immersion program is a good idea the guys had, but we have to work much harder to provide students with what they need because their company is demanding from them to learn the language asap. My intensive course student are the best. I have nine people in class, three hours a day everyday, and this has been wearing me off! Hopefully I'll be assign to teach intensives in February as well.
Speaking of February, it's birthday month.
Well, this is something for another post...
